CHAPTER TWELVE

In Living Colors

I had so much fun and laughter everytime me and my little sisters get together. We usually meet almost everyday and I’ve told them almost everything they need to know about me. Even my hop in the ride of love.

I was so fond of this particular lady and I had so much fun just by talking to her or sending her messages. I don’t know what it is or why it is so good that I sometimes forget of all the other people living and breathing behind or beside me. I was like living in seven different colors, each colors representing a feeling, an emotion, a passion, that only I feel whenever I see her, or I’m with her, or even when I just hear her very precious voice.

Red: I see red everytime I feel her presence. It makes me move things. I feel so passionate and full of joy whenever I know that she’s there. You see, she’s always there. I was never alone, for everytime I needed someone to listen to, someone to hear me out, and she’s there. She blows the red out of me.

Orange: Confidence. The only thing I am so proud of. The only virtue I’m aware of that I really have. And everytime I get the chance to share something to her, she made me feel so confident, so open, that even just by knowing that she’s there all the time, confidence is what triggers me to open up everything I need to tell her.

Yellow: The feeling of calmness. You see, most people know me as cold-blooded, ruthless, and have a hard time controlling my temper. But whenever I think of her lovely face, calmness helps me to realize that me too make mistakes in my life and getting hot-headed will never help me in conquering my emotions. It will only result to trouble, mischief, or even death.

Green: Most people think of the color green as the color of nudity, of persuasive action to have boldness in life, of malicious content of the mind. But for me, green as what I see everytime I feel relaxed and easy. My mind helps me to feel the coolness of my body. And this is what comes after I felt calmness.

Blue: You may never know it but you will only feel happiness when you realize that God is moving in your life. He is alive and he wants to work with us in our lives. That’s what I realize the moment I first saw her face. God wants me to feel happy by using one of his greatest creations, an angel without wings but with a heart of gold and the beauty of nature’s perfect being. That’s her alright.

White: The feeling of peacefulness. I seldom share my experiences to most of my friends nowadays, and I sometimes have a hard time of opening up to them. But with her, she makes it feel so easy. And after every conversation, I feel so peaceful. It’s like I’m talking to one of God’s most precious creations, and I’m so blessed of having her as a friend and staying with her especially at times like it was so rough I want all of it to end. Like I said, she’s always there.

Black: After every conversation, every moment, everytime I think of her, I feel like a new man, reborn and ready to face the world once again. It’s like I’m a newly-born kid who’s just opening up to this thing called life, and I’m about to embark on another journey, a new journey, and everything is actually black. It’s fun knowing that me too can have a new life, and she showed me that.

All these colors give air to my life. I was very open with my feelings for her even with my little sisters. It seems to me that I’ve been living in a dream, a dream where almost anything is possible, a dream where the heart never stops beating, a dream where life is much more likely the way I want it to be, and it relaxes me. It makes me feel happy. And I would never want that feeling to end.